yaad....

pehli bund,pehli baarish,
wo pehla pegaam tha zindagi ka...
badi badi aankhen ,chota sa til..
wo hasin shabab tha zindagi ka...
zindagi nahi thi itni hasin ...
jab-jab giri pehli bund,,,
mujhe tum yaad aaye....

suljhi nazar ,uljhe baal....
wo ajib itefak tha zindagi ka...
nazare churana, jara sa muskurana...
wo shayrana andaaz tha zindagi ka....
zindagi nahi thi itni hasin...
jab jab shayar bane hum,
mujhe tum yaad aaye...

tilasmi kajal,wo bholapan...
wo pehnaava bemisaal tha zindagi ka...
main krishn....to radhika jaisi thi wo....
aur wahi naam tha zindagi ka...
zindagi nahi thi itni hasin....
jab jab li saanse maine....
mujhe tum yaad aaye....

mera anjaam....

koi nahi sikwa mujhe iss kabr se,
nam hain kyu aankhein meri tere zikr se,
ab bhi likhta hu main tera naam........
aur mitata hu,
apni charo mulaqto ka zikr logo ko ,
kayi bar sunata hu,
kyu meri soch aaj kal simat gayi tere naam tak...
kya yeh anjaam hain,
ya yahi safar hoga anjaam tak...

Kill Me........God.....

standing outside......
burning inside....
feeling the things
i never felt before...
he came to me...
with his sword....
asking life ...
for ton of gold...

i was loyal....
but a human...
can't say for sake...
he was the one...
never pleaded,
why do so...
looking at him...
my breath on hold...
pleading my life...
for ton of gold...

he holded my hand...
face was blank...
i think he was saying....
never saw a human..
with this strength...
he was helpless....
feeling disgraced...
he was people's lord..
my friend god....
wanted to kill my dream...
begging my life...
for ton of gold...

he saw me...
asked me wish...
life was beautiful...
wish could be bliss..
he was in hurry...
sword on my head...
waiting for me...
uttering a trash...
he was the lord...
taking my life...
for ton of gold...

i said to him..
i had no doubt...
i had one dream...
need to speak out..
life was just reason...
u can kill me any season...
aim ur sword....
but god,consider the story....
kill me anytime.......
not for gold..............
but for glory...........

i am air............my love

go and sleep
you will see me in dream
shut your eyes
will feel me in their press
think about things
you will mesmerize me in your thoughts
grab the pillow the way you do
you will get my touch
in your every breath
you will seek my warmth
listen your heart beat
you will know your reason to to live
don't open your eyes
you kill me
when you look at me,
i am in air my love
watching you............

tu hi kyu udas hain ye gum to sab kai paas hain...
jeeta hain jo umr bhar ujaale kai liye usse kya pata suraj kitni paas hain
bas dekhne ka hisab hain..

jo rote hain umr bhar...wo khote hain umr bhar..
main nahi khuda kehta hain..
khuda kai lafjo par to jara goor farmao yaaro
apni jindagi ko na namkin panio main bahao yaaro
rone se nahi milti siyasat...
na milta kisi ka pyar....

wo jab bhi gaam main so gaye.....
unhe kya pata qayamat tak charche ho gaye.........

jab ek bund giri unke chaksh se........
to dariyaan bhi beparwah ho gaye........

aur ek din jab tum bhul gayi itrana ..
tumhain kya pata khuda tak kayal ho gaye.....

jab mund li unhone aankein ............
to swarg main kyu aandhera ho gaya.......

jab wo ruth gaye hamse kisi cahat main ..
to unhe kya pata khuda bhi humse ruth gaya........

jab darpan ne bhi na dekha tumhain aaj..
to har mandir mandir darpan ho gaye......

jo sajati thi roj tumhare naino main kajal,
jab tum bhuliusse ek din....
khuda kai samne uske bhi sawaal khade ho gaye...

kyu bhool gayi wo raste tum.
kya pata hai tumhe.
tumhare bin wo raste bhi raah bhul gaye,.......

kyu kho diya tumne apni usss zindadillii ko.......
jo rehte the khush tumhain dekh dekh kar....
ab to wo bhi hasna bhul gaye........

insaan ki fakiri ka wajood ho tum....
ye dil kaba hai tumhara....
aur iss kaba kai hazzaro fakir ho gaye.........

caha maine tumhain kya gunaah tha mera..
ki ab to haar gali main......
mere katil ho gaye..............

dastaan.......ek saheed ki......

Main hu ek insaan ,

chal pada seemo se prakrati ki,

milne dusri pridhi se,

ek aashique hu main ,

ya hu koi jogi,

ya rehna man-moji kaam hai mera,

ya hu pyaas ka bhogi,

jab nikla main tivar roop tha mera,,

badta main tej main,

wo to bhyankar roop tha mera,

tab to log kohraam kare,

mere rang roop ko salam kare.


Jab pahucha main kisi khoj main ,

khule maidano kai sanjog main,

main kyu natmastak ho gaya,

bhul gaya apna tej,

kyu madham ho gaya,

kya ye mera pranam tha ,

ya khof tha prakriti ka,

bahut bada sa vistrit ho gaya,

kyu bhol gaya main bachpan,

kya main kahi khule sapno main kho gaya,

mujhe tum bas yahi rehne do..

sapne main khoya hu ,

muhe mat roko .

bas khone do......



Ye kaha pahucha main ,

ye lo bandh diya meri soch ko ,

duniya ki khwahisho ne,

simat gaya hu main,

ab to khawhishon ki simain bhi bandhi hai,

ye to ajeeb vidambana hai,

kyu ye mujhe jakade ja rahi ,

meri soch ko chota karti ja rahi hai,

kitna ladu main iss duniya se,

aakela pad gaya hu main,

maar-maaar takaaar diwaro se,

kayi baar bikhar chuka hu main,

nahi hara hu main,

par kyu haar gayi kismatmeri,

kyu loogo ko bhi jeene kai loye hai cahat meri.



Ab to dum ghuta hai,

jee rahu hu ek sanduk main,

naaa saans aati hai,

na jaan jati hai,

kyu rehta hu main,

roshni ki bhuk main,

chale ja rahu ,

bin soche bin jaane,

nahi pata anjaam ka,

sab bhagwan ne kiya hai,

sochta hu main,

to fir main kyu naam lu bhagwan ka,

hogi subah kabhi na kabhi,

ye sochta hu main,

chup chap jeene ki saaza bhogta hu main.




Lo hua savera,

jaag raha hu main ya kismat meri,

lo pahuch gaya manjil par,

karne insaan ki kidmat,

uchal pada main nikal pada,

hone teri sewa main nichawar,

main chal pada,

itne saalo chala main,

insaan kai sirf ek shan kai liye

ho gaya kurban,

kya main saheed nahi hu,kya mujhe haq nahi topo ki salami ka,ya insaniyat pe marna,

desh par marne se kamjor hai,

ya khatam nahi hua abhi bhi insaniyat ka daur hai.



Lo chal pada milne apne atit se ,

ek saheed ko diya diya aisa inaam,

gum ho gaya gandagi main,

bhul gaya apna majhab apna naam,

mil bhi gaya atit se to kaun puchta hai,

aajkal kaun apne se bade ko bujurg sochta hai,

ub gaya hu main sona cahta hu.

main fir se apne sapno mai khona cahta hu.....


(ye dastaan hai nadi kai pani ki................)

ek khawhish......

ek khawhish hai tujhe pyar karu,

har ek lamha didar karu,

mere khawbon main tu ek raaz si........

meri aankhon main ek aandaaz si...

behti rehti hai meri saanso main..

tu hi rehti hai meri baaton main.....

to kyu na main intezaaar karu.......

ek khawhish hai tujhe pyar karu .....

har ek lamha didar karu....

main

Ajeeb larka hoon khud ko jalaana chahtaa hoon
May khud ko rakh ker kaheen bhool jana chahtaa hoon

Mere naseeb ki khushiyaan bhi kab mili mujh ko
Bas ab to umer bher aansoo bhana chahtaa hoon

Najanay kitni mohabbat hai ranj-o-ghum se mujhey
Koi bhee dard ho dil may chupana chahtaa hoon

Baha baha ke ye aasnoo bikhar chuka hoon bahut
Simat ke zaat may ab muskurana chahtaa hoon

Jisay eik umer dil mai chupa ke rakha hai
Wo raaz aaj may sab ko batana chahtaaa hoon

Wahee hay yaad jo acha kaha hay logon ne
Baqi saaray sitam bhool jana chahtaa hoon

Mujhe zamanay ne pathar samjh liya hai mager
Mai eik larka hoon sab ko batana chahtaa hoon

Jo mujh se rooth chuki hain zamanay ki khushiyaan
To may bhee un khushiyoon se rooth jana chahtaa hoon

Koi to ho jo lagaye mujhay seenay se
Kisi ko mai bhee apnay ghum sunana chahtaa hoon

Tu apnay dil ke her eik dar ko khool day
Mai dard ban ker teray dil mai aana chahtaa hoon

wo log kehte muje majnu,shiri,ranjha......
main bhi ek khuda ka banda hu unhe batana cahta hu.......

do raah..........

wo jo log chod gaye mujhe do rah par,

kya sacch main unhe pata tha sahi raste ka

ya wo bhi the kisi andekhe kai piche..

kisi aur ki caah main chal diye aankein miche

kyu na main yahii ruk jau

logo ko ek nayi rah dikhu

kholu ek naya rasta

jiski dagar nahi aasan hai..

aapke sabr ka imtian hai

jo jati sapno ki duniya

jiska nahi ko nissan hai

sapno main to sab jite hai..

par main jita hu sapno kai liye

wo sapne jo pure honge

ye hai pakka yakin

agar nahi hue hai logo kai khuda

to main unhe tujhse lunga cheen

abhi bhi waqt hai bacha le apni siyasat.

de de mujhe wo main jo cahta hu

warn agar main aa gaya ufan par...

to teri duniya mainn tufan hoga..

tera nahi logo ki juban par bas

mera hi naam hoga...

ye hai sapno ki duniya

aut iss duniya main bas mera raaz chalta haai....................

time paas mat kar.........

kya cahta hu main...

mujhe nahi pata...

kya cahta hu banana khuda...

ya sirf beta meri maa ka...

ya baap har ustaad ka...

ya khwahish hai paise ki...

ya arjoo hai naam ki...

kitne jate hai roj,

kon puchta hai...

aane wala bhi bas..

puri umr duniya se jujat hai...

kon padhta hai namaj....

aur bhagwan ko bhi kon pujata hai...

log kehte hai kalyug hai.

aur main isse apna yug kehta hu....

karta hu wo jo hai mann main..

apni takdeer main roj khud likhta hu..

khuda kehta hai ki tu nahi meri duniya kai kabil....

agar sunta hai tu to sunn hai khuda.....

apni duniya basa li hain maine logo kai jigar main...

tri duniya main kon insaan rehta hai...

log kehte hai alag sa hu main....

ek falak sa hu main...

koi puche unse wo mujhe haar baat par kyu tokatai hai...

shayad mandee hai baazaaro main aajkal...

tabhi wo mere baare main itna sochte hai..

unhe bolo apna kaam kare...

khaye apna sahi bhoj aur aram kare...

main nahi hu logo kai pichau.

bata du main..

ek din banunga main badsah..

samjha du main...

jita to har koi hai..

par mujhe behja hai ek maksad se...

ye pehle hi jata du main..

jiske paas hai do kodi....

wo kyu karta hai itna gurur...

jab hoge khazane mere paas...

tab bhi sar jhunkaunga...

mann ki baat bata du main...

kyu kehte ho tum mujhe ugta suraj..

main to wahi rehta hu...

jaise cahta hu jeena waise jita hu...

par hai duniya tu kyu ghumti hai mere aage piche...

isse acha apne khuda kai piche ghum...

tera antarmann naram hoga..

cahe kuch mat karo tum karam..

fir bhi tujhe dharam hoga...

tu chod duniya ko...

tere baare main kon puchta hai...

kyu nahi karta tu wo kaam

jisse karne kai liye ....

tu tann.mann jhokta hai...

bana iss duniya ko aisa...

jaha par tu sartaj ho...

jee aise ki lage....

har taraf bas tera raaz ho...

koshish to kar .....

kuch nahi namumkin....

bas shuru kar yahi se..

jaise hum shuru karte hai...

roj naya din....

jeet lai...

jo cahta hai...

duniya bahut chooti hai...

bas hath bada aur lele...

jo bhi tera mann karta hai..

kodiyo kai bhav bikati hai insaniyat

kon puchta hai...

ye chod de khuda kai bharose...

sab tu hi mat kar...

khuda ka bhi khuch karne ka mann karta..

bas tu uth aur shuruwat kar nayi roj....

ye hai meri duniya ka uaool...

aur aise hi meri duniya ka karo baar cahlta hai....

just said............

hey i want to share,

i feel u everywhere,

i trying not to do....

but dont know how to...

not same man....

u have changed me...

now i am complicated for myself...

but u are also not here 4 my help...

wondering around looking 4 u....

whenever i see anybody..

i think i saw u...

hey why do u room around me..?

dont u have another stuff to do.....

why dont u talk...

i dont think we finished with the talk....

we can talk the way priest work.....

so deep we go.....

and so far we travel....

nothing is impossible 4 me....

can forget u.....

but i dont want to.

living in ur dreams is such a dream...

dont wanna wake...up..

so world plz dont scream..

otherwise she will get distrub.nd run away....

hey world plz stay calm...

let me see her more....

i can wait 4 nxt night.

when she will cm back...

so plz have patience nd stay back......

hey i love u its true.....

miss u every day its true....

does it matter 4 u....

i wanna ask first time..

do u feel the same the way i do.....

i am happy vd myself....

dont tell me u dont or u do...

i accept i am one sided lover...

why dont u guys belive me i am true...

hey...baby....just dont go away ....

atleast talk to me....

that same way....

hey dont u think i am mad about u.....

if yes so speak up...

hey why u hurting me every day or night....

if not so plz stay quite...

let me say the thing i want to say...

i am not a bad guy....

and love u lot....

so plz stay.....

mera dost.........

aeh khuda insaaf kar.....
bas tu aaj meri zindagi ka hisab kar........
kyu main tadapata hu is sard main......
kyu leta hu uska naam is dard main.....
kon hai wo..........
jo main usmain kho gaya......
suna tha maine kahi......
dard main rona dawa hai........
ye teri duniya jhooti hai saari......
roya bhi bahut........
socha tha ki wo aayenge chup karane....
par wo nahi aaye ......
nigahein thi meri raaste par raat bhar.......
aur pata nahi main rota rota kab so gaya....
wo nikal gaye dabe pavon.......
tune unhe na bulaya awaaj se........
isliye tujhse khafa hu main......
aeh khuda insaaf kar.....
bas tu aaj meri zindagi ka hisab kar......

eh khuda tujhse kehni mujhe ek baat hai.......
waise bada khush hu main........
ye mat sochna main tujhse darta hu.....
jo beh gaye bina baat mere liye unke aansoo....
main to unke aansoon ki kadar karta hu........
tujhe ilaam hai is baat ka ki main cahta hu unhe khush hardum........
to fir tu unki kyu nahi parwah karta hai......
jab hote hai wo gum main.......
tab tera ye dost bhe gum main rehta hai.......
tu kyu unhe gum deta hai.
kafa hu main....
aeh khuda insaaf kar.....
bas tu aaj meri zindagi ka hisab kar......

kahi tu ye na samjhe main usse pyar nahi karta....
karta hu,par kabhi ijhaar nahi karta......
kyu karu.....
jabaan dono kai paas hai.....
par laggam tere
jab bhi kinara karti hai uski aankhein....
to tujhe kya pata........
pathar hai tu.........
mujhe bada malaal hota hai..........
kuch nahi kehta hu kisise..........
par mujhe apne jeene par sawal hota hai...
khuda bane ghumta hai tu........
kya sochta hai kya dhundta hai tu.......
lagaam ka istaimaal kar......
warna ye dost gaya to wapas nahi aayega....
nahi chodta main kisi ko zindagi ki rah main.......
kafila banane ki aadat hai mujhe...........
par yaad rakhna tujhe chod diya to tu pachtayega.........
abhi bhi waqt hai.........sath de mera........
agar tut gaya main to aanssuu rok nahi payega........
yaa fir bandh le gungaroo aur nach kar.......
duniya chalani mujhe bhi aati hai.......
par meri duniya main koi bhi aashik be-maut marra na jayega........
kyu tu kar raha hai gairo ki tarah sitam........
bachpan se yaaar hai hum........
ek baar fir apne yaar ka sath de.......
bas mujhe is banwaar se nikal de........
ya fir ek kaaam kar........
aeh khuda insaaf kar.....
bas tu aaj meri zindagi ka hisab kar......

chal chod kya puchega kaisa hu main......
acha hi bolte hai sab..
aur ishi tarah acha hu main......
jab bhi yaad aati hai uski......
tanhayion main usse dundta hu.......
jab bhi kabhi wo aati hai sapno main.......
main raat ko lambhi karne kai tareekein dhundta hu..........
kyu tere raaj main sab kaam samay par hota hai......
kyu na sooraj us din do pehar aur der tak sota hai....
aa jaata hai roj subah.........
kya ye kabhi apni life se bore nahi hota hai.........
tu bata mujhe kya wo bhi kabhi mere baare main sochti hai........
kya wo bhi apne aansu kabhi hath aur kabhi takiyein se pochti hai............
kya wo bhi abhi gumsum baith kar kho jati hai...........
kya wo bhi kabhi chand ko dekhte dekhte so jati hai........
kya wo bhi kabhi tahlti hai milo tak...........
kya wo bhi kabhi leti hai mera naam bin baat.......
kya wo bhi kabhi sochti hai mujhe din raat.........
kya usse bhi parhez hai hassi se..........
kya wo bhi parriyon ki kahaniyon main kho jati hai........
kya usse bhi har surat meri tarah lagti hai.........
kya wo bhi raaton main bin baat tehalti hai.......
kya ussse bhi nafrat hai bheed se......
kya wo bhi thak jati kabhi kabhi mere bare main bol bol kar.........
apne dil kai raaz aaienein kai samne khol khol kar.........
kya kamre main rehna bandh uska bhi sahunk hai........
o logo kai khuda tu soya to nahi.........sunn.........
kya kamre main rehna bandh uska bhi sahunk hai.......
agar haan..to dost usse bhi meri tarah ishq ka rog hai.........
aur agar nahi to..........maaf kar..........
bas khamosh reh........aur meri agali baat par gaur kar........

har baat yaad hai mujhe un dino ki.........
jab wo chalte the mere ban kar humsafar......
pal ko kon sochta......... na ghantoo ka hisab tha.........
ki thi hamne kayi saari baatein ek din.........
par meri sari baaton ka to bas wo hi jawab tha.......
tujhe sab pata tha.......hai na khuda........
fir bhi tune kyu na mere sath insaaf kiya.......
ab bhi mauka hai ........gunhaah kabul kar.......
meri ye zindagi na uske bina fizool kar.........
warna tujhse fir se ho jaunga kahfa ........
aur mangunga hisab.........
darr hai khuda............
aaj tu mujhse darrr........

looking beautiful in yellow............

u lookin good in yellow......
and not confine.....
hair fallin like nox.....
and looks so divine.....
u make people fool,
they pray ,
they cry,
they live to survive,
you are like rhine.......
and they like pine.......
yellow looks good on u......
or may be vice versa.......
but hey girl...
u have the charm
better than mum,
a aura.......
which even cognac cann't flunk......
a sense which is unique..
u know better what it means....
ur smile attain the olympic,
without any gun or run......
u live like sunflower.......
move like the way moves sun......
so be the same,
the way u are.......
because i am here to narrate every word.....
today to far.....

TERI AANKHEIN............

आवारा नही था मैं फिर भी घूमता था दरबदर,
काम नही था ये ,शौक था मेरा,
तलाश थी न जाने मुझको किसकी
जा पंहुचा मैं मंदिर से मस्जिद तक,
तू मिली मुझे वहा जहा रहता था मैं शाम सेहर,
जब से देखा है तेरी आँखों मैं,
भेद न कोई धर्म का,
पवित्र सा हु मैं आज,

तेरी आंखें ..................
जब भी देखता हु इन्हें ,
बस रूक जाता हु ,
तेरी आंखों कि गहराई मैं,
बस जाता हुँ,
जो आंखें है तुम्हारी जादू से काम नही,
एक मासूम बच्चें सा ढग जाता हुँ

तेरी आंखें ......................
जब खुलती है यह आंखें ,
तो सोचता हु क्यों न ये ही जीवन है,
और मैं दीवाना इनका
करने इब्बादत,इनके सामने झुंक जाता हुँ,

तेरी आँखें ..........................
जब झुकती हैं ये आंखें तो,
शयाई के घेर गहरे हो जाते है,
जैसे सूरज छुपा है
और बादल उमड़ आते है,

तेरी आंखें ..........................
क्या तुमने कभी देखी हैं लहरे सागर कि,
जब रोती हैं ये आंखें,तो क़यामत होती है,
खुद खुदा घबराता है ऐसे मंजर से,
और मैं सूरज की तरह सागर निगल जाता हु,

तेरी आंखें ..........................
अगर ये आंखें करे शरारते ,
तो नशीब समझे ,
पत्थर खाये थे मजनू ने इनके लिए,
और मैं कहता हु-हे खुदा,ये वक़्त यही क्यों नही रूक जाता है,

तेरी आंखें ..........................
जब वो आंखें बातें करती है,
मुझे वो शायरी सी लगती है,
जो हमारी धड़कने नादान
कई दिनों बाद समझती है

तेरी आंखें ..........................
कुछ छुपता नही है,
तुम्हारी आंखों मैं,
हिरन सी क्यों है ये,
क्या तुम बता सकती हो
की जीवन सी क्यों है ये,

तेरी आंखें ..........................
जो चाहते है काबू पाना इनपर,
मर जाते है वो इश्क मैं,
क्या तुमने सोचा था कभी
कि इतना भी तड़ँपाती है आंखें,

तेरी आंखें ..........................
पहेली नही है ,
पर माया से कम न समझो
हर पल मुझको कुछ नया सिखाती है ये,

तेरी आंखें ..........................
गंगा सा साफ है ये तेरा मॅन ,
चंद्रमा सी कया ,
शायद इसीलिए मुझे,
खुदा के दर्शन कराती है ये

तेरी आंखें ..........
नही घूमता मैं दरबदर अब,
न तलाश है किसी कि,
सब कुछ है मेरे पास,
अब ना है कमी किसी कि,
जब से है हुई रूबुरु तेरी आंखें

तेरी आँखें ..........................बस इन्हें ही देखता हूँ आज कल ......................

hey........i like this........i heard that when i was commuting to puri(orrisa)......a sadho was singing ......very beautiful.........

मैं दो कदम चलता और एक पल को रुकता मगर...........
♡ इस एक पल जिन्दगी मुझसे चार कदम आगे बढ जाती ।
♡ मैं फिर दो कदम चलता और एक पल को रुकता और....
♡ जिन्दगी फिर मुझसे चार कदम आगे बढ जाती ।
♡ युँ ही जिन्दगी को जीतता देख मैं मुस्कुराता और....
♡ जिन्दगी मेरी मुस्कुराहट पर हैंरान होती ।
♡ ये सिलसिला यहीं चलता रहता.....
♡ फिर एक दिन मुझे हंसता देख एक सितारे ने पुछा..........
♡ " तुम हार कर भी मुस्कुराते हो ! क्या तुम्हें दुख नहीं होता हार का ? "
♡♡ तब मैंनें कहा................
♡ मुझे पता हैं एक ऐसी सरहद आयेगी जहाँ से आगे
♡ जिन्दगी चार कदम तो क्या एक कदम भी आगे ना बढ पायेगी,
♡ तब जिन्दगी मेरा इन्तज़ार करेगी और मैं......
♡ तब भी युँ ही चलता रुकता अपनी रफ्तार से अपनी धुन मैं वहाँ पहुँगा.......
♡ एक पल रुक कर, जिन्दगी को देख कर मुस्कुराउगा..........
♡ बीते सफर को एक नज़र देख अपने कदम फिर बढाँउगा।
♡ ठीक उसी पल मैं जिन्दगी से जीत जाउगा.........
♡ मैं अपनी हार पर भी मुस्कुराता था और अपनी जीत पर भी......
♡ मगर जिन्दगी अपनी जीत पर भी ना मुस्कुरा पाई थी और अपनी हार पर भी ना रो पायेगी